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She said I am not ready
Everything is over for me
And I’m the victim you're just selfish
Sea help me to immerse myself in my world
I'm lonely inside and doors close
In these clothes I don't feel anymore
Nevermind I'm a slave, I'm waiting for you
She said you make me so unclear now
You slip upon my skin
You make me feel so guilty
You suck my lymph
You eat my honey
She said I'm ready to calm down
To come out of you
Don't laugh at me, I walk with weights bound to my feet
It's not always summer, the only time I am worth something
I'm going to kill myself
Cos I am wrapped in this distress
Made to live by force